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Watching the 12-12-12 show last night, the term “70′s rock” received a whole new meaning, as several of the most impressive performers were in, or close to, their seventies!
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Here is just one example: I am hurrying to send an e-mail to an important person in my life (it can be business related or personal) and I read it through thinking it is ready. I push “send”.
As soon as the e-mail leaves my outbox, I realize that the wrong person was CC’ed, or a word in the e-mail was unintentionally harsh, inappropriate or presumptuous.
The feeling in my gut is almost unbearable at this point. Various expletives (not for print here) dance around in my head!
Why did I not wait to send it?
Why did I not think of this before I sent it?
How can I be so thoughtless/stupid/inconsiderate/….?
And no matter how much I wrestle with myself, I cannot undo the action. Done is done – there is no way back. And then comes the self-blame.
Self-blame is like fire – if left unattended it consumes everything in its path!
My day is now shaped by it. It casts a long shadow over my relationships with innocent bystanders such as business associates, and (especially) husband and kids by a sense of dread that I carry with me. I feel bad about me – therefore I have much less attention to give to other areas of my life. I am moody and short-tempered.
Isn’t it interesting that when we beat up on ourselves, we are really taking away attention from what we could be doing? We are less likely to have any excess energy, which means we won’t help our own situation or that of others, and we are less likely to reach out and be of service. Much of our energy goes towards listening to that critical voice in our heads that is busy beating up on us!
Being in the throes of self-blame is a selfish act.
Think about it…
My daily practice has turned towards separating self-blame from self-reflection. It is necessary to learn from our mistakes if we want to grow. And spending a little time and deciding what could be done better or more thoughtfully is usually beneficial (even if it is just to let a few minutes pass, do something else, and then read the same important e-mail with fresh eyes).
Yet to self-blame is completely useless!
Perfection is a town in Russia – but we can strive for excellence by learning from our previous actions!
We can free ourselves from the self-imposed prison of thinking we need to be perfect by celebrating that we learn from our mistakes. In a sense, if we learn from our mistakes, then they are indeed our greatest teachers and therefore causes for celebration!
For me, this helps to minimize of the guilt, shame and self-blame that I normally treat myself to when I screw up – and I get more done!
And still…. right now I kind of dread pushing that “publish” button over to the right….. And I take a moment – do something else – read it again. Then I push that button and move on!
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Some of us go into this season dreading it….
We have a sense of impending doom, when we think of the long to-do lists that loom, when we consider all the decorating, cooking, buying, giving and planning that goes into the season.
Some find that the financial situation is so tight that being able to live up to the perceived expectations means going into debt for the coming “happy” New Year. The resentment follows like a holiday hang-over when the presents are unwrapped. Presents that effectively will need to be paid for with uncertainty and fear in the coming months.
At this time of year, glossy portrayals of family bliss, adored children with wrapping paper piles, tons of presents, old and dear traditions, lights and lovingly prepared family meals are everywhere.
And for many of us this is far from reality.
For some money is not the problem, but they are not looking forward to the emotional toll of having family members bicker and fight over the turkey. Or they dread the disrespect that their children, their spouses or their relatives show them, even as they try to give everyone a pleasant time.
This is a time of heartache and suffering for many of us. Even the ones among us who are not looking like we are on the surface. It can be a time of pretending as we put on a happy face and allow the merriment of the season to wash over us, at least in public!
If you or someone you know is in this situation, there are a few things we can do to create a more joyous Holiday experience. First a quick internal assessment:
If the “home is where the heart is” – then what is truly in your heart?
Sometimes we discover that our focus on how to set the table, what we would like to give, etc. is a cover-up for what we really want: A feeling of love, kindness, togetherness, meaningful relationships, a way to matter to others or simply absence of pain, despair and loneliness.
Is it money? No family? Not enough time? Or is it a perception that this is what others expect? Is it the sense that you by sacrificing yourself for others at this time makes you feel important?
Can you show your love for your family without having to stretch yourself thin? How can you prepare them (and yourself) for this in a way that allows a new sense of anticipation?
If you are alone, how can you plan a meaningful time for celebrating you – or where can you look to find others who are in the same situation and help create a great experience for them as well as yourself?
If you family is bickering – how can you create new rituals with them that will further a spirit of togetherness and not the same old same old?
As part of the preparation we can ask family and friends for input as they help us create new traditions. The mad dash we normally engage in is largely self-imposed. And many of our relatives actually appreciate a less stressful season with more emphasis on togetherness and less on keeping up appearances.
Convention is a town in our own head!
And it is possible that all that we need to change our “have to’s,” is to just have the conversation – first internally, and then with others. You might be surprised at what you find when you lift the veil of convention.
Happy Holidays. To coin a phrase: Have it YOUR way!
– What do you see when you look at that person from the “other” political party speaking their “truth” at you like you don’t have a single functioning brain cell?
– What do you see when you look at the people from another religion who dress and act differently from you?
– What do you see when you look at the homeless person on the street corner?
– What do you see when you look at the man in the Ferrari, who just cut you off in traffic?
Many times we get triggered. We find ourselves irritated, angry, anxious or even afraid when we meet people who seem different from us. They look odd, they sound strange, they might talk about things that we find absurd. Or they might simply invade our personal space and push our buttons.
Yesterday I was having a delightful conversation with a group of people. We talked about if God has a face. Some of us felt the question was irrelevant. Others felt that God is an entity too large for personification. And then someone simply said:
– “Of course God has a face – it is the face of everybody I see”
I wonder what would happen if we started looking at everybody like they were a personification of God? Or if God is a concept you do not subscribe to, then what would happen if you looked at everybody like they were a part of you?
What would happen in our political process if the boundaries between “us and them” ceased to exist?
What would happen in religion, if we stopped name-calling (or killing) those from another faith than our own?
What would happen?
Maybe we would feel less anger towards “those other people”.
In neuroscience it has been found that anger interrupts the functioning of our frontal brain lobes where rational thought, compassion and empathy take place. When angry, we return to an emotionally charged and primitive behavioral pattern that is very useful if we were a dinosaur (or if we are in legitimate danger) – but maybe not all that practical for a modern-day human being living in a complex world. We tend to feel self-justified and self-righteous. We get reactive and are not able to respond with kindness or even with a rational outlook.
Instead we turn into an emotional loud-mouthed (or internally raging) person.
What would happen if our political discussions were not conducted from this place of opposition, but rather from an inclusive place of “we’re all in this together”. Or if the warring fractions in religious wars reminded themselves that they are really both reflections of the face of God?
It takes a conscious intention to change the way our brain does business. But neuroscience shows it can be done. And reminding ourselves that our “enemies” are in fact a part of us, or have the face of God, might help. It is easy to look at a newborn baby and see the face of God. But can you look at Nancy Pelosi or John Boehner the same way?
Just food for thought.
Why would you want to?
Well, sometimes our normal anger response, the sense of “knowing better” and the feeling of the other side being inferior does not bring us any solutions or a lasting sense of achievement. We simply mire ourselves more and more in our habitual thinking patterns. And the world doesn’t change if we don’t.
So what do we have to lose? Next time we are tempted to go on the offensive whether in action or in our thoughts – maybe it makes sense to give it a try:
-“I am looking at the face of God”
-“I am looking at a part of me”
Maybe we will find that as we unlock new thinking patterns in our brain, new solutions come to mind.
Maybe, as we discover what it feels like to not hide behind our bastions of preconceived notions, we also find a new sense of empathy and understanding.
Maybe it is worth a try….
Yesterday morning I was walking at 4:30AM. It was foggy and dark. A delicious time to walk in peace and quiet. The fog was like thick oatmeal and the dampness of the air was invigorating, sprinkling my face with a cool mist. I was lost in thoughts as I walked. I felt connected to all and nothing in particular.
And then I got the brilliant idea: to break my meditative state and
check the e-mails on my phone!
Now if I had stopped, or even slowed down, to glance at the ever-present piece of technology, well – that would have been one thing. But of course I didn’t. I walked on in the fog.
All was well until suddenly an object reached out and grabbed both my legs and abruptly stopped their forward motion and enveloped them in a sharp, unforgiving, agonizing pain. The top of my body was well on its way to the next step – and my legs were hindered by this mysterious object.
“Holy s… I am going over – gosh this hurts“
My survival instincts were in full attack mode. What on earth was happening? Did someone grab my legs with metal thongs, and next thing I know I am going to be hauled into an unmarked white van never to be heard from again?
Time slowed down, as it tends to do in these types of fight or flight experiences. All I could do was to try to balance myself somehow and not fall over. I was flailing in the air, making the most ungracious moves to remain standing. I did not want to drop the phone on the hard sidewalk concrete either.
By some amazing grace, I managed to not topple, and also to keep my phone in my hand.
It was time to assess what had “grabbed my legs”.
I looked down to see an innocent, yet very unmovable-looking fire hydrant! It was down low and I had not seen it in my phone-absorbed awareness. Well, at least I did not have to fight off the imagined guys in the white van… However, what I never realized about fire hydrants is that they have really, really sharp bolts on them. HUGE bolts, which on this one were covered in black, oily grease. And on both my legs were now big black scrapes and throbbing bruises from these contraptions.
It hurt like crazy.
Now the old me would have frozen. I would have been enveloped in pain and bent over – stopped in my tracks. My first thoughts would have been along these lines:
-“Crap, I am just so stupid! I know not to walk in fog and look at my phone at the same time- Duh!”
-“Jeez, I wonder who saw that? That must have looked ridiculous… maybe someone is having a good laugh at me?”
– “I am just such a klutz!”
-“Why does this kind of stuff always happen to me?”
I would have been petrified by the pain, and humiliated by my own thoughts. The walk would probably have ended with me limping home – or calling a cab. I would have felt like crap. Icepacks would have been applied and I would have been there in my house feeling victimized by the stupid hydrant that happened to be in my way.
What was interesting about this experience this time, was the fact that after I assessed the damage, I actually managed to just keep walking. As my legs throbbed, I seemingly moved through the pain. Words popped into my head that were very different to how I would have responded for most of my life. I felt grateful for my body’s ability to balance itself. I felt competent that I had managed to hold on to the phone and not fall. I thanked the Universe for giving me this reminder that my walks (especially in the fog and with jet lag) are for feeling connected. A connectedness that does NOT involve technology! How lucky was I that I could receive this reminder without falling off a cliff or getting run over by a car?
As I kept walking, the pain became a warm almost pleasant tingle. It was as if the blood, rushing through my body, allowed the pain to transform into this awareness of new lessons learned.
There is a saying that goes like this:
“Pain is inevitable – Suffering is optional”
And yes, we certainly cannot escape pain in our lives. It is a fact of life. From beginning to end, we will run into episodes of hurt. It is what we do with it those painful experiences that makes a difference: Pain is what the world does to us. Suffering is often brought on by what we do to ourselves by how we react to it. By how we think about the it. By what we take the pain to mean.
In coaching, when we experience pain, we often look for “what is real” about it. What is inevitable. And then we work to separate “what is” from what we take it to mean. Often we feel liberated and lighter when we free ourselves from our self-imposed interpretations and assumptions. And our suffering lessens.
What might you take the “fire hydrants” to mean in your life?
Many of us are dealing with various amounts of irritation and anxiety brought on by an increasingly polarized political debate. This year it seems more intense than ever.
We view campaign ads, hear political debates, hear people talk fearfully about what will happen if the President wins another term – or if the other candidate wins the election.
Before we know it, we get caught up in election time negativity. It is a new personality disorder that seems increasingly to affect us around the time of big National elections. I call it only half-joking: What-If-Itis!
You can easily self-diagnose. You have whatifitis if you feel drained or even paralyzed by one or more of the following symptoms:
People with whatifitis find themselves unable to engage in respectful debate or take action, because much of their energy gets wrapped up in a constant sense of fear and/or anger. They feel inundated with what they hear and see on TV, or read about in newspapers or on the internet. Things that they feel powerless to do something about.They are in a permanent state of action-frozen lock-down.
Here are a couple of tips that might help you or someone you know snap out of whatifitis.